Could it stop?

Occasionally I have a recurring theme to my dreams. For some reason John will have become completely indifferent to me. Or worse, sometimes he has stopped loving me completely. In my dream I will be on my knees begging him to love me. I wake up completely frantic....it's horrible. These dreams are deeply disturbing to John and myself, but became even more perplexing when we discovered that my brother suffers from the same theme. Lost love. As I was driving yesterday I began to think about my parents. When we were small and they divorced, it was a common excuse to tell children, "Mommy and Daddy don't love each other anymore." "Why?" we would ask. "Sometimes Mommys and Daddys just stop loving each other, but we'll never stop loving you." This concept makes sense as a child, but as the mind matures you wonder....how can you choose who you suddenly stop loving? Can you? I look at John....my mate, my lover, father of my child, my best friend, my release, my punching bag, my comfort, my inspiration, my one true love....how could I EVER stop? No matter what circumstance came our way, I can't imagine ever losing the feeling I have when we laugh together, love together, experience Jack together. It may be naive, but I think that this love I have for him is iron-clad. I know that my parents did what they could to protect us and give us a simple explanation for the complex reality that was the deterioration of their marriage. But the simple concept of love stopping can, and has, affected every aspect of loving relationships in our lives. How far I can I push this person? How bad do I have to be before this person will leave me? For that matter, could God stop? My mind can be plagued with awful thoughts; could God in His divine purity ever become so disgusted with me that He stops? My mind says no, my reasoning says no, but my heart wonders. Creator of Love, I pray that you will strengthen and grow my marriage. Provide us with a bond that is above all human temptation, lies, and detriment. Allow us to be the earthly example of your Heavenly consistency. Let Jack see that our love for him will never stop, and that your love for him could NEVER be shaken. This is how I felt.