We will never be here again...

I can't place the movie, but the quote is..."you will never be lovelier than you are right now. We will never be here again." This concept has become so true to me since I became a mother. I look at my son and think he's getting so big!! Then I realize....this is the smallest he's ever going to be. Each day he will grow bigger and bigger. His mind will acquire more knowledge. He will experience more, take in more. He will lose more and more of his innocence...his purity. He will never be tomorrow what he is today. I sat in tears this week as I packed away his newborn baby clothes. Although I have hope that they will be worn again someday by another child of mine, he will never wear them again. One cannot dwell on the sadness of time past, but looking to the future forces the dismissal of the present. How can one live in the current, the now. I have spent the better part of 8 years worrying about my physical appearance. Am I too fat, is my hairstyle current, am I beautiful in his eyes. Now, ironically, everything is in shambles after my child and I have never felt more beautiful. I have never been more confident and more at peace. I could worry about the stretch marks or the extra 5-10 pounds I'm carrying around...or I could realize, that this is the youngest I'm ever going to be. I will never be here again. In this time, do I want my appearance to be my focus? NO. Trivial. Immature. Empty. So many aspects of my life carry this same type of uselessness. My focus has been skewed. My son's birth has given me clarity. I want my son to love his place in the world. I cannot show him how if I am discontent. God gave us mortality for a reason. He wants us realize that our time is fleeting. Our lives are but a vapor so His word says....a vapor. May the time that I am given be useful. May I not dwell on times past or future, but live for this moment, this time, this precious gift....I will never be here again. This is how I felt.