Whining and Humility

I sat up last night feeling sorry for myself. A big plate of humility was served up when we realized we don't have enough money to go out to dinner with our friends or attend a couple of out-of-town weddings coming up. We sat in silence agonizing over where we could scrape up a few extra bucks. Should we get new jobs, should we sell some things, blah, blah, blah. Today I am disgusted with myself. Who am I to complain about my place in life? God has blessed us with a beautiful house, nice cars, stable jobs, a healthy child...I'm whining because we don't have enough furniture, I'm whining because we can't spend $50 on dinner. Woe is me. I could have cancer. I could be living without running water. I could be lost without the hope of salvation that comes from God. But I'm not. So where does one draw the line?? There are always people starving in Africa, there are always orphans and homeless people, and there is always someone more down on their luck.....does this mean I am unworthy to whine? Probably. So much of my life is foolishness. Keeping up appearances. Don't show weakness. Be prideful. But this is all in direct opposition to how God wants us to live. He desires our humility, our raw humanity. He is consistent in showing me areas of my life that need to be banished. This is one of them. My desire for things could potentially lead to an obsession with money. No amount of money is worth the damage desiring it can cause. No more pouting. No more whining. I pray that God will use this time in my life to bring glory to Himself. May I be ever thankful for the gifts I have been given, and not covet that which is not intended for me at this time. This is how I felt.